Having my son die on May 11, 2008, I actually thought after the first year that I was finally healing, finally getting my life back together around April, 2009. Boy was I wrong.
On May 4th, 2009, I had started getting back to what I needed to do to get on with everything, and I then it happened. I passed out at work. I have never ever passed out at work, no reason at all to my knowledge. My son found me, in the bathroom at work, sweaty, etc. I went to the hospital, where they found nothing. OK, no problems. Right.
I had some issues with dyslexia, which I have never had either. Thought it was a bit strange, but no worries. I noticed that I had also, had some memory issues, which is not me. I have a photographic memory mostly in my little boring existence. I usually don't say that to people because I don't like to toot my own horn that I am smart. So back to the story.
With these issues, I was experiencing headaches. They weren't too bad, but to the point that you noticed then more frequently than normal. About July, after progression of the headaches, I had one mind blowing headache that was so intense that I could hear the lady across the street squeak her swing and to caused my head to completely exploded. This should have been my supposed intelligence level to also scream going, "Hello, Dummy! Wake the hell up." But of course, it wasn't.
The headaches continued. I then had no recourse, thanks to my husband who made an appointment for me, to see a doctor.
After the appointment, I was asked to go to the doctor. Maybe there was something with the MRI machine, or maybe I wiggled or something. Of course that wasn't the case.
It was after hours, so they escorted me into the ER, which they had me gown up, and started putting IV's in my arms, without an explanation. So, I am really freaking out now. Turns out I should be.
The doctor on call the time, asked us to sit down in his chair in the ER and said, "This is what you need to see. This is your tumor, and we need to get you on a life flight or a car as soon as possible. Which one would you like? I, think you need to get there very quickly, might burst."
Speechless. That is all I can describe what was going on in my mind right there that minute of my life.
I will do more on this post later today.